For the past eight years of my life, I've wondered where do I fit in this world. I am no one special ; I know that because I was never told by anyone that I'm going to cure cancer or fly a plane. I had plans of my own but it's hard to make it happen when I have no one who believes in me. What reason do I have to believe in myself? Sure I'm in college, learning what I supposedly love. Probably because it's the only thing I have left. I consider myself as someone who's only purpose in life is to help others achieve their purpose. I am the girl who has lost her purpose in life. But how can you lose something you never had?
I am an Observant.
I see how you look down trying to avoid contacts as you walk. I see the emptiness in your smile. You're forced to wear long sleeves even though the sun is so close to earth, just to hide your pain. You don't wanna talk about it. You carry the weigh of the world under your eyes. You walk so fast people barely see you. You're arms… are your diary. I saw what you wrote and all of them spelled pain. I may not know your story but here's mine… I am an observant. I look for scars just like mine on others. I know I'm not alone, YOU AREN'T TOO. Talk to me, I'll listen. People like us is broken. We only have each other. We are…. observants.
To Promise Forever by Dee
That tingle i get when our eyes meet. That pumping blood I fell smelling your scent. Smiling at the thought of you, NEVER want it to go away. Nothing compares to you, but darling I'm afraid. Too young, too early to promise. Too fragile, too soon for forever. We're both holding on to a hope that we'll be each other's til the end. We're each other's strength. Oh the irony. We're both such fragile creatures holding on to a hope. It's not always sunny but I'd fight through the storm because at the end of the day, to have you by my side on my death bed is all I ask for. Stay with me. I'm a mess, I know. I'm difficult… I've always been difficult. Stay with me. You're my sanity.