I should just die or something. It's bad enough to screw up but to drag people down along with me?! I should get shot by an evil clown.
Tonight was my fourth time being on air and I came up to a conclusion that I CANNOT TALK TO SAVE MY LIFE. I have a delivering problem, my volume is waaaaaay down there, I can't pronounce words, and I feel like I'm trying too hard. I would type out what I want to say and it sounded great on my head but then I voice it out and DAMN GURL SHUT THE FUCK UP. Like no matter how many time Kevin (the main DJ) teaches me, I just can't soak it in. I sound like an idiot when I try too hard almost like I'm faking my emotions. Ugh dammit. I feel bad for ruining the show every time I come in. I bet the station loses it's rating because of me.
I'm just gonna explain this experience with pictures. So this is what I wore. Thought I'd keep it simple and comfortable because I predicted that it was gonna rain. I got to the venue at 6 10 pm and I thought I was late to for the meet & greet session with Luke Steele from Empire Of The Sun but I ended up waited for another half an hour. As soon as I walked into his dressing room, the smell of Spa greeted us followed by his smiles. He's so lovely. We weren't allowed to take personal pictures so the photographer known as "porn star" took it for us. We were inside for a few minutes. Yep it was THAT heavy. After the meet and greet we went to the green stage to catch a performance but sadly the stage blacked out due to the rain. Don't forget Nigel a new friend Jas and I made. He's responsible for fly fm meet and greet. At around 7 30, we went to the silent disco and danced. We were inside for almost an hour. We had nachos before heading to the main stage for Empire Of The Sun and we got to be in the front. At around 10pm, the concert finally starts. Ellie Goulding's set started at 12am. She sounds amazing and better than on her records. I know right? How is that even possible. Unless you're there, you would think I'm lying. I had to go back straight after the concert because my dad was already waiting BUT I managed to grab Ellie Goulding official merch. Oh and P.S we took a selfie in the pouring rain with Jas's waterproof phone 😆 I went to deliver the good vibes festival to the buyer at plaza damas just now and there were few cool shops so I can't stop myself from stepping into em. The first shop I found was some new age shop that sells all the candles and cards and spells and stones and other spiritual stuffs. I wanted to buy one of the stones but I'll end up losing them anyways. I just thought the shop was super creepy and cool. As I walk further to where I parked my car, I stumbled across a shop that sells bracelets and spa equipment (weird combination) so yeah I bought one of the bracelets. You see, I have a problem with bracelets. I can't stop buying them. Each and every one of hem means something to me and they're like my friends now. I also have anklets that I haven been wearing since I'm probably sixteen years old. Taking them off means losing a part of me. Call me a freak but it's true. They sorta boost my confidence. They're been through so much with me cause I never take them off hahah After I went to pick up my Good Vibes Festival tickets at the FlyFm office, I went over to Myra's to record a cover we've been working on. We got tired and bored so we decided to do something fun. We decided to live up to my name "creepydee" and attempt a creepy video. I got to the studio 20 minutes early and the Main DJ said we're gonna start off with something simple. So I thought it's going to be introducing stuffs but instead it was the traffic report. I suck at reading stuff and pronouncing right on the spot. I said "in the pening bridge" instead of "on the Penang bridge", I literally said R B D instead of roundabout cause how the hell am I supposed to know that. I thought things are gonna turn after a few times but I totally messed up my celebrity gossip and weird news. "Who's Scott?" "Scott is khloe's uhhhh sister's her uhm" *facepalm* I meant to say Kourtney's boyfriend. Dammit. And my weird news was so bad that I repeated the story twice. Even the DJ said it was so bad. After that I did intros and outro and that was alright I guess. The 10pm DJ came in at 9 and taught me how to make playlist for the radio and that was fun. Both if the DJs are super nice and fun to be with; I'm just upset that I messed up so bad. I legit said that on air OMG can I get anymore lame?! Last night was a great experience I enjoyed every second of it. I was scared at the beginning but Mr Bones managed to make me feel comfortable so after awhile I got the hang of it. The feedbacks I got was guhreat ❤️ you're all so lovely. We talked about slipknot's come back and how unsatisfying it is, talked about how kids started listening to the radio again, basically all music related and wow do I love being on it. I took 2 shots of espresso before coming into the studio because I was super sleepy. I was pretty much running with caffein. I just got back from the meeting with KC from TraxxFM and basically she offered me two shows. 1 is called The Evening Buzz 6 to 10 PM three times a week but I'll only be on air for an hour with Kevin and the other one is called The Alternation 10 to 2 AM every saturday. and I'll be on air for the whole 4 hours with Mr Bones. KC said I could do both if I want to but my father is only allowing me to do one show for the time being and it's the Evening Buzz. I kinda want to do both shows as it'll fill more of my time AND HEY AT LEAST I'LL BE PRODUCTIVE! I might start tomorrow night if I do both shows but If I'm following my father's choice, i'll start on Monday. I should be able to do what I want to do right? So Maybe I'll take both shows.
There was another DJ in the office just now and when KC introduced me saying I'm Dr.J's daughter and that I'm going to be the guest DJ, he gave KC this "what the hell?" look. Whatevs :p I'm going to enjoy my soy milk latte now. P.S. I saw one of my college classmates in the lobby just now. Apparently he's sending his songs to be played. #l I was stuck in a really bad traffic jam so I listened to the radio and they announced that the cue to text in is coming in 5 minutes. I got my phone out and ready the text. This is my 3rd time trying. I text twice tho; one right when they set the cue and another few seconds later because they're looking for the 23rd text. I thought I didn't win cause they took their time calling. Few minutes later I got a call from the radio and I picked up with the password "GOOD VIBES?" And it replied "congratulations nadiah you just won yourself passes to good vibes festival!!!" And I went totally insane in my car. I was shaking and my heart pounding so fast! Since It was the bonus hour, I also won myself a meet & greet with Empire Of The Sun 😆😆😆😆😆 I got more excited and I squeaked so bad that the announcer had to say "okay before you pass out..." Hahahah HOLY SHIT IM GOING TO GOOD VIBES FESTIVAL FOR FREE!! AND MEETING EMPIRE OF THE SUN!! I was supposed to have a meeting with the Traxx people but they had a last minute thing so they postponed it to tomorrow morning. Since I had no other plans today OH and plus my piano class was cancelled, I decided to visit the boyfriend who's working at e@curve. He's taking pictures for the Toppo Top Model search. So he took a few pictures of me and they put it on the Facebook page. Then we went for lunch at Johnny Rockets. And then we went back to the booth and he forced me to play the stacking game. And guess what I won hahah So I'm just chilling at this bench cause I'm supposed to go to the curve and get some clay for gypsy chimes but it's raining and I'm lazy as hell. |